When I couldn’t get to Uganda, God brought a piece of Uganda to me

“Where would I be without you? Where would I be without you, Jesus?” 

My heart broke when I realized that my summer internship in Uganda wasn’t going to happen. 

Why would God create the opportunity if He knew it wasn’t going to happen? 

We end up questioning a lot of things that God allows to happen in our life.

Maybe it is the job that you fell in love with, just to get let go. 

Maybe it is that relationship that made you feel complete, just to become strangers overnight.

Maybe it is the devastating news from the doctor that makes you wonder how much longer you can fight. 

We all have passions. We all have desires. And we all encounter disappointment in one way or another. 

However, we each express these feelings in a different way. 

At the end of the day, no matter how we put it, how many times we say it, or who we say it to, it is impossible for someone to be able to feel the exact way that we feel deep down. 

It would be so comforting for someone to be able to look at us and say all the right things. 

It is painful to watch someone that you love be in such pain that they are doubting everything. 

Imagine that desire to take away someone else’s pain and now imagine that when you are wondering why you are walking through this alone, God is looking at you. Wanting to take away your pain. 

But instead of not being able to fully understand, He does. 

Instead of desiring to take away your pain, He can. 

Instead of wanting to love you even more, it’s not possible because you are His child and He cannot love you more than he already does.

When we try to find gratification, peace, and happiness in others, we will quickly realize that we are setting ourselves and our people up for failure. 

God intentionally designed us to only be able to find complete and utter peace in Him. If we could find it in a doctor, a friend, or a family member, we would not need God. 

After lots of questions to God. After lots of fake responses to others saying that I am “happy to have stayed in the United States this summer,” God heard me. 

I received a call on Wednesday evening offering the opportunity to be able to help teach school to the Sozo choir, from Sozo Children. This is who I traveled to Uganda with last summer, and the choir is now in the United States. 

Among the Sozo choir is Susie, one of the girls that I sponsor.

There are also 13 other kids in the choir and I absolutely adore each and every one of them.

Yesterday I was able to spend a numerous amount of hours with the kids.

And although Uganda has my heart. It is not Uganda that is going to complete me. It is not even the amazing children from Uganda that I have been able to encounter. It is God. Solely God. And when we allow ourselves to embrace the fact that He is all we need, we are going to stop setting ourselves up for failure when we try to find happiness in worldly things.