For the Planner

I am a huge planner.
I visited one college, and I was 15 at the time.
I began only one application for my school, Samford University, the day it became open.
I hoped to be in my sisters sorority, since she ran home to Phi Mu on bid day.
I have known what I want to be when I grow up, since I was 14.
I like to know where I am going, before I get there.
But God has recently decided to flip my whole world around.

To say that I am freaked out, is an understatement.
I had a plan to be a social worker, stay in the country, and work with at risk children.
But then God made my life long dream of Uganda, a reality.

This is now one of my biggest struggles.
I just wrote about "living in the now" and "enjoying the journey," but am still waking up every day, wishing that I was in Uganda.
And that is not living in the now.

Many of you know what I am talking about when I mention a "missions trip high."
We all get them.
Well, my number one prayer when I returned home from Uganda, was that I did not just have a missions trip high.
I didn't want the feeling that I had, to ever go away.
And Jesus answered my prayer.
But now, I am going into life with no plan..
And that scares me like nothing else.

                                                      But for the planner, like myself,
Your boss already has the plans, your job isn't to take over, it is to follow the instructions. 

It is kind of like turning in a rough draft to a professor.
We would much rather have our first draft proof read, before we turn in our final work.
God is like that professor.
When we call on Him, he goes through and fixes all of our mistakes, and points us in the right direction.

Sometimes, our professor will tell us that we are not understanding the point at all, and to approach from a different angle.

A quote in "Love Does" by Bob Goff, really stuck out to me.
He said: "Many people have angles attached to their relationships. They will say or do one thing and you learn later that they were actually angling for something else in return. A lot of Christians do the same thing with their faith, without noticing.

They call, what the rest of us call normal acts of kindness, a ministry
Or go on a wonderful adventure to another country, and call it a missions trip."

Nothing is wrong with normal acts of kindness or a missions trip.
But what if we collected sources for our paper, without crediting our information, or without a works cited?

God kind of feels this way sometimes.
We do something nice, or travel to "serve Him," but then take the credit.
We ask him for a direction, and then stay on the path on which we are headed.

So to the planner,
Try taking a day off.
Allow someone much more powerful and wise,
The Lord Almighty,
To take control of the wheel.
And then jump in the passenger seat,
And enjoy the ride.